you know people always say that things only get worst as they get better, but lately thats not been  happening... i basically gave up on all hope, i'm sick of believing in something that isn't there , people say that god always listens to you in times of your needs, but how come he donest make them any better for me.  I TRY so hard to just stay happy, sometimes it's impossible for me to pretend everythings okay.. when evreythings just wrong.. i wish i was stronger but i never will be... i just wish that i had something to help me live on .. becuase right now.. i have nothing

carolines leaving tomorrow =( but last night was SOO much fun. me jamie caroline and christine all slept over christines house.. caroline went to sleep at like 12 and me jamie and christine HAD A FOOD FIGHT. jamie effin hit me in the face with a pop tart.. then i took the pop tart and shoved it in her face then jamie and christine started to throw ice cream at eachother thenn they both threw it at me.. HOLY SHIT it was the funniest thing ever ! i was dying from laughing so hard haha.. whenever jamie christine and me are together we always find something fun to do.. haha good times .. alright well im going now

Lisa

love you taylor

MERRY CHRISTMAS  i woke up at 445 .. i had a scary dream so i just decided to go downstairs and peak to see what santa brought this year . i finally got a cell fone ! im hanging out wiht my brother and a few of my freinds that i havn't seen in a while.. so it'll be fun. well im going..

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL.. and to ALL A GOOD NIGHT

Lisa

i love you taylor <3

christmas eve <3 the night i can never fall asleep. things have been going pretty good lately, my cousins coming sunday ` i miss her so much. my dad's buying a new car this week ( well he's hopeing ) and my brother is getting his license in a month & 3 days. he's counting down, it must be torture for him .. i have to go to a christmas eve service at 5 .. im not really into that kind of stuff.. i find it incredibly boring.. but atleast my brothers going to be there. i havn't really seen him lately. he's either working or out. and i'm either out or sleeping by the time he comes home. i wish things could go back to the way they were this summer when we were incredibly close. but maybe it's better that we've grown further apart because he's been getting into stuff that i would never want to get involved in. but maybe if we were still realy close. i could help him. we kind of talked a few nights ago about some things hes struggling with,, i just wish i could be there for him more then i am already. well i have nothing else to say...

Merry Christmas Eve

Lisa